Amy’s Story

On Wednesday afternoon the 4th of April 2012 I found out I was pregnant. This was a life-changing realisation. I didn’t even think twice, got on to Google and searched for help. I was pregnant and alone.

Here is some background that lead up to that day.

At the time I found out I was pregnant, I was working at a big church in South Africa. At the same time, I was battling with a Sexual addiction. During the day I would worship God and at night I would bow my knee before any man that was willing to beat and sexually assault me. It came to a point where the battle between good and evil in my life just got too much. I met with 2 Nigerian pimps who were willing to take me in to work for them full-time as a prostitute.

While struggling with this decision, I found out I was pregnant. This was definitely an intervention. Because Doctors told me it was impossible for me to fall pregnant by myself.

I didn’t know what to do. Nobody would understand that I’m pregnant because I’m supposed to be this holier-than-thou Christian girl. My first instinct was to go on to the internet and search for help. The only results that came up were abortion pills and clinics. I was a bit sceptic about the pills and phoned the clinic. They could help me the next day.

On Thursday 5 April, I got on to my scooter and drove an hour to the clinic. The whole experience was surreal. They did an ultrasound to see how far along I was. I heard my baby’s heartbeat. The counselling was all geared towards that an abortion would be my best option. I was left alone for a while in a small office. Sitting there, holding my phone, wondering who I can call. I even got up and started walking out. Just to turn around.

During the procedure the Dr kept on talking about God, and how He would understand and forgive me. I just wanted to get it over and go on with my life.

The abortion broke me. A couple of days after it I sat in our Hope Centre’s office and just came clean. The lady was very understanding and caring. She arranged that I go and see someone at a Pregnancy Help Centre.

My councillor was amazing. She took me on a journey of post-abortion counselling and dealing with my past. I walked away from the Sexual addiction, reconciled with my family, and changed my life 180 degrees.

Amy saved my life! I still wonder what would have happened if instead of finding a abortion clinic on Google, I found a Pregnancy Help Centre. Maybe Amy would be with me today.